Sorry to scare those of you who read my vent....

I'm okay. Still upset cause I cant get ahold of tyler still. I've barely talked to him all week excpet for the two times I've seen him....It's depressing me.
And then where I'm a worrier, I always think of the worst.
he's avoiding me, he doesnt want to talk to me....stuff like that I know isn't true but I always think it...and worse. I hate it I'm just afraid to lose him.

I'm gonna try again here in a few. Bye.

Okay, so that last journal was quite depressing, and for that I apologise lol. It really wasn't that bad of a week. I spent time with family and friends Making me happy.

I've started a story that I'm gonna try n finish lol. I've just gotta get enough time. I've gotta start Driver's Ed. And then school starts the 20th of this month. I getta be a big ol' junior....not yay lol. But I'm going to try hard to make it through all that and get this story done. Plus I wanna try to work on some new photography.

Well that's all for now loves

here's to my besties:

This is more or less my own mini-rant due to the fact that Tyler did end up having to go on that horrid Tenneessee trip. No he didn't want to go. It's his step mom's family along with the step sister whore Jordan. His younger sister Chelsea goes, but she'll be with the girls. The younger boys and the teen cousin of Jordan all agrivate him. Shockingly his father is going for the first time since Brandy started this yearly trip. Tyler hasn't decied if that's good or bad. It would have been nice if Rick would have stayed home 'cause then Tyler could have as well. I'm going to miss him so much though :tear: I about cried tonight when he left but he made me promise not to for him, and I did. Then right before he left he told me he'd be back in no time, that he'd miss me insanely, that he loved me and he's always there for me to be held It made me smile...and tear up a bit. But it's all good.
Five days....what the heck am I gonna do? I'm usually talking to him on the phone or he's here with me. I'm gonna go insane. I have found a few things to do to keep my mind off of the time ticking by so SLOW.
I'm going to stay the night with my Aunt Mary
Then, I'm going to go to the Zoo and a Water Park with my Aunt Mendy. Stay the night there.
After that, I'm going to spend some time with brenda and jenna and amanda. My best girlfriends that I can hardly ever get ahold of haha. Bren works. Mandy works. And Jenna....well she's usually helping her mom or with her bf.

Well.....I'm gonna go to bed and wake up to a Tyler-less week.

Goodnight all.

Oooookaaaayyy.

Well, as we all know, I've not uploaded anything for a few days. I understand that I probably have too many journals that are totally pointless but it helps me think straight.

So as of now, I have possibly two projects. Maybe three.

A memoroal for my wonderful and missed Poppy
A drawing of 'Moulin Rouge' and an update on 'The Notebook' drawing.
Poissible band shoot for some friends. MAYBE. I dunno yet.

I'm hoping I can get some more stuff to do though I'm looking, so don't fret.
I'd like to find some photography ideas but that stuff just comes to me, I don't like poses to tell you the truth. Photos have more meaning when caught off-guard or are accidental. As I seem to have alot of

Well, I'm gonna go read my book
It's called 'Marked' by Kristen and P.C. Cast. You should check it out, I L-O-V-E it!!!


Kaitlan

Well, we all know I've been dying for some models. I wanna use my camera and get used too all the pretty litte functions it has. I'll need my mom to watch my training video with me and help me though. She's smart so yeah.

But anyway, I've found some models if this all pans out the way I'm hoping.
I recently discovered that my friends Cody Delaney and Cody Hamilton have a band page on MySpace. I knew they had a band, their lead singer being a boy named Grant Ruth who I'm not close to. But the Cody's are pretty awesome, Delaney the beast-iest
Anywho, Delaney has offered to let me take their band photos for MySpace. I figure this is a great way for me to practice and attempt to get better. I have three models as individuals and as a group. I'll upload them on here as well. I'm gonna need some band photo ideas cause we all know you guys rock .


At the moment they have only one song up on their profile. It's short but good. They have more and better ones. I've heard a few when they played at school. They currently need a bassist. The rest is covered. Check'em out n let me know what you think
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I tried to put their photos on my journal but it just turned them into links lol.